Things on my mind

There is a lot that has happend over this ten week term in class. I fell behind and tried to get caught up. There is alot of work I needed to accomplish and did some of what I wanted to , but not all of it. I would have liked to have done alot better. I had challenges in life that got int he way of my school work. I also had ups and downs during the course. I feel that I may repeat the course and then I wil face that when I find out for sure.

In the mean time I will say that my thoughts and prayers go out to our professor and her family. It is tragic what she is going through and I feel that she will be okay after some time. I know that sometimes you can't prevent a tragedy such as this, but it is painful to lose a child. I have four kids and I pray each day that they stay safe and healthy. I will be thinking about her and her family and pray that God will help her through this. God Bless Her!

Daughter's

My daughter has her first boyfriend. She is so excited about it and scared. I keep assuring her that it is normal. But here is the catch she is only 10 going to be 11 next month. They want to go to the movies this weekend and I gave her permission to go. She is happy about that. This boy is a good boy and they have alot in common. The only difference between them is that his grandparent's are raising him and not his parent's. I do not know the story about that yet, but I am glad he has people that love him. They are going to see that new Alice in wonderland movie I guess. The other thing that surprised me is he is paying for everything when they go! I do not know what is going to happend from here, but I hope she is ready if the worst happens. I gotta prepare myself for all those emotions. As a mom I have mixed feelings, but I am happy for her. She really likes this boy and I will be there for her and support her, but yet put out those guidelines of do's and don'ts. I wonder if anyone has experienced this before as themselves or with there own kids. I know that I had childhood boyfriend's. But you know I think as long as this is supervised they will be okay. Any comments that could help me out or just something that can help her would be nice. By the way my husband does know what to think about all this. I think he is realizing that she is growing up in a lot of ways. I think he'll be ok though. I hope.

frustrated

I have so much going on in my life that my school work is suffering. I am so behind it is not funny. My husband demands attention then my 4 kids plus everything else that is going on with my family friend being ill with cancer. I have not done any school work in days and I still have work from last week that needs to be done. I need a break and a vacation. My head is spinning and I am at a loss on what to do. Why does life get so hard sometimes. Hopefully I will get caught up here real soon.

"Crazy Days"

My friend had surgery today and will start radiation and chemo next week. He has stage 2 into possible stage 3 throat cancer. He is going through a lot and I pray for him daily.

Last thursday I had my husband at the hospital with heart problems and chest pain then had to take him for a stress test the next day. He is doing better now with the new medications that he is on.

I feel that my world could crash at any time with everything that is going on. I have been going non-stop since thursday and I am beat. Running and taking care of my husband, then we have been spending time with our friend to help him out with support.

My kids are holding up pretty good despite everything that has been going on. I think that things will calm down here soon,I hope. Life is crazy and you never know what you are going to encounter from day to day. I pray a lot and hold on to the grace of God. Everyday I wait and see what is going to be and thank God for that day as I live and put each foot forward.

I want to say that being strong and keeping that face that makes everyone think you are alright is very hard. I have to put a smuile on and move on. I have a long road ahead of me between heart doctors for my husband and helping out my friend once treatments start for him.
I hope that everyone else is having blessed days with their family and friends.

Cancer!!!

I always wondered what it would be like to know someone with cancer! I now know that a close friend of mine has cancer and the prognosis may not be good. It is hard to accept even though he is not related He is still like family and it is hard to deal. I feel that as long as there are prayers he will be okay. I pray everyday that he will be okay and that God will take care of him. I know that it is going to be okay. I hope that anyone that reads this will send out their prayers too.

Life in general

I have been doing better than the last post. Both my girls have made honor roll in school this quarter and my 6 year old daughter has been doing better in her reading. She gets extra help and that has made a big difference in her grades and schooling period. My 10 year old daughter has been doing better with handing in assignments and getting her homework done. This has helped her stay on the A and B honor roll. I am very proud of them for all their hard work for the last quarter in school. I hope that they keep it up and that my 6 year old will read a lot better and more often. This has been a challenge of mine since school started and is ongoing.

My two sons are doing good and driving me nuts. My two year old has a mind of his own and is into EVERYTHING. He doesn't care what you say or if he gets time out he will still do it. I laugh a lot because he speaks his mind and doesn't like to get into trouble, but he does it anyway. He is a red head and they say they are stubborn people. I only have him that has red hair and I'll have to agree that he is stubborn and can be very mean. I love him though. He is a trip to have around, I just wish that he would listen better.

Then, I have my one year old who is a soul on his own. He is nothing like his siblings and is just a wonderful person to have around. He loves to laugh and giggle all the time and likes to push my dresser over from his crib. He thinks he is funny. You would have to be here to know where I am coming from in regards to the dresser thing. He doesn't like to keep his clothes on and loves being in his diaper only. He is in a world of his own. He doesn't really have an attitude as his brother and sisters do and loves to smile at you. Bad day or not he always has that beautiful smile for me. He is growing into his own little person and loves being around everyone.

My husband is doing good. He drives me crazy too. He can be as bad as the kids at times, but I love him very much. He will do anything for me and no matter what happens he is always there for me. I study so much for school plus we have seminars and he is right there beside me helping me along the way. Ecspecially with anatomy and physiology. He helps me study and does what he can with the kids so that way I get my work done. I love him for everything that he does for me and I don't think he realizes how much I appreciate it. I may not show him enough and I think that I need to. I would be lost without him. I wish that he could understand how happy he makes me and that I am happy I just don't show it as much as I should. Anyone else been in this situation where you don't show enough emotions to your significant other??

Life in general is hard and you throw in marriage, kids, work and schooling and it can be a big mess and complicated. I find that life is a challenge and as you can see from what I talked about I have my challenges. I feel that as long as I take it one day at a time I will survive and manage. I love my life and there are very few things that I would change and that would be that my kids don't like to listen. Otherwise my life is good. With out chaos I would go insane. I hope that this story helps others to see that they are not alone in challenges, because I have been there before and still am. Life is what you make it!!!

Kids and there attitudes

I love my kids very much, but they tend to push buttons all the time. I have a ten year old daughter who thinks that she is eighteen. This bugs me, because she thinks that she doesn't have to listen and can do whatever she wants. I know there are other that are out there that have had similar situations. I just love her and then my six year old daughter likes to argue all the time and feels that becuase her sister doesn't listen that she can get away with it too. I struggle everyday with this and the only thing that I tell myself is that things willl get better and that I love them very much. I not only have the two girls, but also a two and one year old sons. My two yesr is going the the terrible two's phase and that is just a trip and I just feel like pulling my hair out at times. My one year old son like to scream for everything and is getting better with his vocanbulary. I feel that everyone has their struggles with raising kids and you know what I think that it is a challenge that God gave us to do in life. I feel that kids are a blessing and that no matter what challenges play out in life you will always have unconditional love for them. My kids are my life, but I wish that my girls were better behaved than they are. I feel that these challenges of life make me a better and stronger as a whole. People say that children are a gift from God and I believe it.