Cancer!!!

I always wondered what it would be like to know someone with cancer! I now know that a close friend of mine has cancer and the prognosis may not be good. It is hard to accept even though he is not related He is still like family and it is hard to deal. I feel that as long as there are prayers he will be okay. I pray everyday that he will be okay and that God will take care of him. I know that it is going to be okay. I hope that anyone that reads this will send out their prayers too.

Life in general

I have been doing better than the last post. Both my girls have made honor roll in school this quarter and my 6 year old daughter has been doing better in her reading. She gets extra help and that has made a big difference in her grades and schooling period. My 10 year old daughter has been doing better with handing in assignments and getting her homework done. This has helped her stay on the A and B honor roll. I am very proud of them for all their hard work for the last quarter in school. I hope that they keep it up and that my 6 year old will read a lot better and more often. This has been a challenge of mine since school started and is ongoing.

My two sons are doing good and driving me nuts. My two year old has a mind of his own and is into EVERYTHING. He doesn't care what you say or if he gets time out he will still do it. I laugh a lot because he speaks his mind and doesn't like to get into trouble, but he does it anyway. He is a red head and they say they are stubborn people. I only have him that has red hair and I'll have to agree that he is stubborn and can be very mean. I love him though. He is a trip to have around, I just wish that he would listen better.

Then, I have my one year old who is a soul on his own. He is nothing like his siblings and is just a wonderful person to have around. He loves to laugh and giggle all the time and likes to push my dresser over from his crib. He thinks he is funny. You would have to be here to know where I am coming from in regards to the dresser thing. He doesn't like to keep his clothes on and loves being in his diaper only. He is in a world of his own. He doesn't really have an attitude as his brother and sisters do and loves to smile at you. Bad day or not he always has that beautiful smile for me. He is growing into his own little person and loves being around everyone.

My husband is doing good. He drives me crazy too. He can be as bad as the kids at times, but I love him very much. He will do anything for me and no matter what happens he is always there for me. I study so much for school plus we have seminars and he is right there beside me helping me along the way. Ecspecially with anatomy and physiology. He helps me study and does what he can with the kids so that way I get my work done. I love him for everything that he does for me and I don't think he realizes how much I appreciate it. I may not show him enough and I think that I need to. I would be lost without him. I wish that he could understand how happy he makes me and that I am happy I just don't show it as much as I should. Anyone else been in this situation where you don't show enough emotions to your significant other??

Life in general is hard and you throw in marriage, kids, work and schooling and it can be a big mess and complicated. I find that life is a challenge and as you can see from what I talked about I have my challenges. I feel that as long as I take it one day at a time I will survive and manage. I love my life and there are very few things that I would change and that would be that my kids don't like to listen. Otherwise my life is good. With out chaos I would go insane. I hope that this story helps others to see that they are not alone in challenges, because I have been there before and still am. Life is what you make it!!!

Kids and there attitudes

I love my kids very much, but they tend to push buttons all the time. I have a ten year old daughter who thinks that she is eighteen. This bugs me, because she thinks that she doesn't have to listen and can do whatever she wants. I know there are other that are out there that have had similar situations. I just love her and then my six year old daughter likes to argue all the time and feels that becuase her sister doesn't listen that she can get away with it too. I struggle everyday with this and the only thing that I tell myself is that things willl get better and that I love them very much. I not only have the two girls, but also a two and one year old sons. My two yesr is going the the terrible two's phase and that is just a trip and I just feel like pulling my hair out at times. My one year old son like to scream for everything and is getting better with his vocanbulary. I feel that everyone has their struggles with raising kids and you know what I think that it is a challenge that God gave us to do in life. I feel that kids are a blessing and that no matter what challenges play out in life you will always have unconditional love for them. My kids are my life, but I wish that my girls were better behaved than they are. I feel that these challenges of life make me a better and stronger as a whole. People say that children are a gift from God and I believe it.

Crazy Days of Nicole

I feel that the world is spinning without me at times. I am trying to balance my husband, children and school. Studying takes a lot of time and sometimes I feel that I don't havbe the time to do it. I have so much to do during the day when my two oldest kids are at school, but I still have my two and one year old children who are very demanding. Not to mention the typical house cleaning(which I hate laundry) to do. Life seems to never give me a break I feel and sometimes I wish I could just say leave me alone. Since the loss of my mother on July 31, 2009 I have had so much trouble coping with life in general. SHe was my rock and go to person if I needed it and now she is gone. I had her there when I needed her and she tried so hard to help me to deal with being a mother and student and just life in general. SHe helped me so much and now that it is gone I am having trouble with it. I guess I need to step up and not feel so down all the time. Having my mother here one day and talkikg to her hours before she passed is hard. I had her close, I took care of her due to her illness and we were close. Taking her loss has been hard and very depressing. I think that I feel the way I do is because of losing her. I feel though as the days go on I will come around and have better things to say. I loved her and this will never change. Mom's are special and when you go through what I have been through with my mother you would understand where I am coming from. As my Dad says God will heal you and you need to pick up the pieces and live the wya they would have wanted you to live. I feel that expressing this someone else such as my followers and fellow classmates I will heal even quicker and my days will get brighter. So please don't find this to depressing but as a way for me to heal and have better days. I look forward to writing more for all to read such as stories about my children and the goofy things that they do and for instance me trying to plan a vacation for next month. Bless you all!

Composition II

I found that this was easy to set up but can be very confusing to get going on.